Things I found in the fire

Well, technically there was no fire. Not in my own life, anyway.
Yes, I have had to deal with fires and more than once, but this was different.

The fire I am talking about was in my soul.

My very life, my very belief system, my very thoughts and my entire being was rocked to the core by situations that were now out of my control.

I was at the bottom. 

The fire was in my soul and it was not a pleasant experience.

I won't go into my life's disaster details here and I may never really write about it in this blog. In fact, I am really tired of thinking about it and trying to explain what happened to people that can never really fully understand what I am talking about and probably really don't care all that much, anyway.
So, while it was true that there was not a real physical fire, but the destruction was complete much in the same way a real fire does a person's home or belongings.
Not only did I lose so many material things but making things even worse, I lost my brother from cancer during this process which only added to my pain.
My life was a mess and maybe it still is.

During these dark days of my life, I rediscovered a true love for MUSIC.

I have to say rediscovered because I used to listen to a lot of music as a younger person but had lost touch while raising a family, growing a business and other details of a busy life. 


Listening to music was a part of the healing presence. Oh, I am not healed yet, but I am working on it even if I have a ways to go.
Music is a part of the process.


I started with music that I grew up with such as Creedence Clearwater Revival and a lot of other groups from back in the day.
My playlist grew from there.
It has taken a lot of time but has been so much fun to discover one new music group after another and even find some I had forgotten about.

I have cried through this process and I have laughed as well. But, through it all I have kept moving forward and finding song after song and enjoying myself.
I love the Blues, Classic Rock, Alternative Rock, Texas Country and many other genres. .
Almost every night I am online searching for new music discoveries. During this time, new music has gotten harder and harder to find but I am still out there searching.

Maybe some day my spirit will  heal up. In the meantime, I have my music.

It's my life, give me that remote.